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Tue May 3, 2016, 10:31 PM


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I wonder when will I have a break and things will get better a little :(



From my 365 day project



Day 2 - Spring by CarlaSophia Day 3 - Spring by CarlaSophia Day 7 - Spring by CarlaSophia Day 11 - Blossom by CarlaSophia Day 15 - Spring by CarlaSophia Day 16 - Blossom by CarlaSophia 017 by CarlaSophia

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Commission : Ianthe by DomDozz Commission : Hongxue and Luxun by DomDozz Final Blaze! by DomDozz Commission : Rayna Faywind by DomDozz Valiant Force - Divine Avenger - Asteriel by DomDozz Naucrate by DomDozz

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Margaery Tyrell by Dopaprime - The Ice Sculptor - by Dopaprime Lilith by Dopaprime SS2012 : Leshura by Dopaprime ::COMMISSION:: Succubus Runa by Dopaprime + S H A T T E R E D + by Dopaprime

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:COM: Story of two Sisters by Doria-Plume I won't be alone by Doria-Plume Sadness and Hope by Doria-Plume Mikasa's Childhood by Doria-Plume - An Old Promise - by Doria-Plume Stay by Doria-Plume




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Sun Apr 24, 2016, 2:19 PM


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You were the shadow to my light
Did you feel us?
Another start
You fade away
Afraid our aim is out of sight
Wanna see us
Alive
Where are you now?
Was it all in my fantasy?
Where are you now?
Were you only imaginary?


How is it possible, no matter what, at the end of the day in the deep silence my heart cries, i still miss you

New beginning I by CarlaSophia



From my 365 day project



Day 2 - Spring by CarlaSophia Day 3 - Spring by CarlaSophia Day 7 - Spring by CarlaSophia Day 11 - Blossom by CarlaSophia Day 15 - Spring by CarlaSophia Day 16 - Blossom by CarlaSophia

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Fri Apr 1, 2016, 8:47 AM

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Wed Mar 2, 2016, 1:27 PM


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I decided finally doing the 365 day project, i think its way overdue lol, but better late than never. I'm hoping this will help me in so many ways, one of them is keeping a routine of taking photos more often, sometimes i dont grab my camera for months and thats just wrong.
I'm hoping it will help my creativity flow and be better at my work. I want to be better, practice makes perfection :D I can't take pictures every single day, but i will post one per and i'll take picture almost everyday, i'll try overcome some of the things that would stop me in the past, but the worst is fighting myself, sometimes i'm so depressed that i wont get out of bed and i want to change that and work not only on my photography but on myself too.
I'm hoping i wont fail at this too... since i fail in every single thing i do or like (relationships....).

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Before the storm IV by CarlaSophia Autumn I by CarlaSophia Summer sunrise I by CarlaSophia



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Start! by DigitalCutti Sleep... by DigitalCutti Market Place by DigitalCutti Bleach battle by DigitalCutti Book Cover by DigitalCutti Downtown by DigitalCutti

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Heaven Have Mercy by dihaze silencio by dihaze you love her because she is dead by dihaze not falling by dihaze clockwork by dihaze siren by dihaze

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My birthday and DD

Mon Feb 8, 2016, 8:25 PM


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On Sunday was my Birthday! I can't believe i'm already 34, time goes by so fast and i feel i didn't live at all... i actually didn't lol. I feel like i fail at life, and i fail chosing my friends, cause from all the birthday wishes i got, the ones i care the most didn't even remember me, except my best friend, but she works a lot, so i knew she probably would be late on that, and i was right, got a few messages from her today :aww: but everyone else kinda forgot me, so that makes me really sad. I mean, i know its only a day, my dad keeps telling me that, but wtf, its my day, if we are close to someone we expect that person at least to text, right? ... :( But i'm not mad, just sad, cause i wanted them to know how happy i was to have them in my life (guess they aren't).
I'm so messed up, and still, feeling like a kid lol, i'm 34, but still feeling like a lot younger, sometimes i feel i never grew up, sometimes i feel i lived 1000 lifes. But looking back, i did nothing for myself. But kinda makes me say, i'm not done yet! Just wait and see!
I had a very simple dinner with my parents and sister, she baked the cake (since we are so short on money) and since my nephew's bday was on saturday we shared the cake. Since i wanted the 34 candles, we almost set the cake on fire lol.

Img 20160207 192942 by CarlaSophia Img 20160207 205716 by CarlaSophia Img 20160207 210134 by CarlaSophia

I did get a early bday gift, i got a DD last wednesday! I'm so happy! Thank you Whimsical-Dreams for suggested it and JenFruzz for featuring it! I'm so gratefull :heart: :aww: :heart:

Hope for a better day II by CarlaSophia

"You know great things are coming when everything seems to be wrong. Old energy is clearing out for new energy to enter. Be patient!"


Light and Shadows by CarlaSophia Before the storm III by CarlaSophia Bliss II by CarlaSophia Sunset at the beach I by CarlaSophia - Rose I - by CarlaSophia



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My past year...

Sun Jan 3, 2016, 6:55 PM


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Hello all, Happy New Year! I hope everyone had a great holidays :)
Last year was very bitter for me, started ok, but then in July just got bad to worse. Once again my heart was fooled and my life at home is really bad. Since we have a huge lack of money, stress levels are really high and me and my parents spent all days fighting or not talking at all to each other, not even when we are having dinner (when we have food to eat). But, the good thing is, i found someone to help me to put some food on the table, but still, sometimes in the weekends we dont eat at all, the thing is or we pay the bills and dont eat, or we eat and dont pay the bills, really hard to balance that,we live day by day, but i feel really blessed and gratefull to have that extra help.

Everyday it gets harder.
Everyday it's like a nightmare progressing on.
Everyday is another prayer echohing from my bones asking God to take me now.
Everyday I close up more.
Everyday it gets more impossible.
Everyday I feel myself die some more.
Everyday I lay on my bed wondering how I'll leave this hell.
I've never felt so much pain.


Personally, my depression is getting worse and worse and I feel like i'm drowning. I'm all alone, the few people I trust just turn their back on me, once they were here, now they are gone, i dont even know why. Well, i do know, no one wants to deal with a person like me, with all these problems and shit. I never fail to my friends, no matter what is going on in my life i'm always there to who needs, no matter what. But me... no, i'm always alone, no will tell me everything will be ok, no one will give me hugs and make me smile. I always cry alone, my best and worse time, i spent them alone.
I laugh when those old ladies, neighboors, ask my mom if i have a boyfriend, cause really... what guy wants a girl like me, full of shit, ugly, fat and crippled. This was never an issue for me, but now, i just hate myself, i avoid mirrors, i dont let my mom put the mirrors she wants to put in the livingroom. I dont show to people how i really feel, i always have a smile for everyone.
I'm such a disappointment, I failed to make something usefull with my life, i'm a dead weight to my parents and no matter what i do, i cant keep the ones i love near me. Everytime i woke up, i'm like "oh shit, i'm still breathing", i'm only alive cause i'm to coward to end it. But i do, i bet in a few days no one will remember me, and my parents will forget me soon enough.
I keep doing my photography cause its the only thing that keeps me going, although my sales was a disaster in 2015, but i just keep doing it, for me, my heart still beats cause of it, one day i hope someone will understand the way i see (or saw) the world.
I'm to damaged, to broken, to useless to exist... and i know no one will read this, but while my tears run down my face, deep down i hope someone will read this and understand a little of what i feel.

Before the storm II by CarlaSophia Heartbroken I by CarlaSophia



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